8.17.2005
| the day when i dont care about the title |

y do i feel gloomy today

i feel alone. like i was left behind in my own world. i feel sad. because i know that no matter how i try, nothing would make sense. like creating your own dimension and shielding yourself from the cruel reality of everything else. like my own little paradigm i built, then hated almost at the same time. my friends have been there for me, and i love them. but somehow, i feel isolated. im alone. i have to deal with this on my own. becoz nobody would understand how hard it is for me. deep inside, tears flow out of my soul. and now, i feel empty.

grays|*mumbles to herself* | 1:50 PM | 0 comments


8.10.2005
| the day when i turned 23 |

The Blessing of Unanswered Prayers

I asked for strength that I might achieve; I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked for health that I might do greater things; I was given infirmity that I might do better things.

I asked for riches that I might be happy; I was given poverty that I might be wise.

I asked for power that I might have the praise of men; I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life; I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I had asked for, but eveything that I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself my unspoken prayers were answered; I am, among all men, most richly blessed.

- Unknown Confederate soldier -

grays|*mumbles to herself* | 1:57 PM | 0 comments


8.05.2005
| the day when it rains |

haaay ulan

ang sarap ng pakiramdam kapag umuulan. ang sarap ng dampi ng hangin at ng tunog ng patak ng tubig. ang payapa ng paligid at ang kulimlim ng langit, parang makahulugan ang katahimikan sa daan. kaya lang, pag umuulan... hay, ang trafic. ang hirap sumakay. kailangan, may payong ka para hindi ka mabasa. otherwise... well you can imagine.

parang love yan eh. masarap sa pakiramdam. kapag dumarating, minsan di ka prepared. kadalasan, maiipit ka sa gitna. kapag minamalas ka...babagyuhin ka pa. kasabay ng payapang paligid biglang kukulimlim ang langit. parang nagbabadya ng unos na parating. sa love kasi, hindi lahat saya. darating ang oras na magkakaroon ka ng problema. na magiisip ka kung ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman mo. pag hindi ka handa sa ganyang pagkakataon, kawawa ka. kasi, panigurado mababasa ka, mahihirapang sumakay. matrafic. kung hindi... para kang basang sisiw. lost.

pero sa buhay, kasama talaga ang problema. minsan, nalulusutan natin yan. minsan naman... kelangang nating tanggapin kung ano man ang kahinatnan ng mga bagay. isipin mo na lang na nangyayari ang lahat dahil may dahilan. at kung anu man yun... mag ccontribute para maging mas malakas ka para sa susunod na pagbuhos ng ulan.

isipin mo na lang na pagkatapos ng bagyo, sisikat ulit ang araw.

grays|*mumbles to herself* | 2:01 PM | 0 comments


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